It is a sad day when I know other girls like integra but refuse to post good fanfiction. Grrr.

There's only two ways i want love,
One i've got and one i'll never have.

The first is contentment. A soft barely spoken love. A comfortable feeling of ease rather than the pleasures of the flesh. The mere presence of the one I love is enough to make the darkest day seem perfect. If it wasn't for him I don't think I'd have much worth living for. The only thing that shows we're more than friends is a kiss on the cheek, a head on the shoulder, and my hand in his. So gental it's perfect. Though it need not be said I long to hear the words "I Love You." I have this love and I wouldn't give it up for the world.

The second is a dark passion. No, not passion, possession. To have a man, nay, a monster; a killer without emotions look another man murderously in the eye and say, "This girl belongs to me, if you so much as look at her i'll kill you." To be protected and treated like china by a man who has killed more people than can be counted. Not to be loved, to be owned. To wait every day for him to return so that I may be swept up, a possessive arm holding me so I may not break free. Reminding me that he is indeed a killler and that I am his only. Then to a dark place where no one but the walls would know what was done.

o.k. so first time ever going to Momocon was awesome. There were a lot of great cosplayers and i got a standing ovation twice, confused and stepped on by two different Alucards, and hotter than i've ever been in my entire life. The only thing that was off putting was that the higher you went in the building the hotter it became. And for a girl in leather that's a little suckish. I'll be posting pics after i post this journal.

I'm about to do something i said i would never do.

I'm going to cosplay Near. Shocking i know.

But I've got this wig and as soon as i get the color on it my cosplay should be pretty good. I don't know where the sudden urge came from i just wanted to see if i could do it i guess.

I'M STILL MELLO AT HEART!

Rules:
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.
Tag 3 people.


1) Name? -Nadilee
Not defined

2) Your Age? -15
One of the worst ages of being a teenager. You are in the middle and you wind up with the most problems that age. You are too young to drive without an adult, cannot go to the prom, and get a part time job like real teenagers. Your head is up your ass and one day you are still a kid watching cartoons and another day you'll like to have sex. This is also the age when most teen problems occur such as anorexia and cutting.
Bob: I am 15... what a crappy age. Only a few months until I turn 16, I can't wait.


3) One of your Friends? -Ben
one who wanks it in the bathroom in a hotel full of guys
i cant believe he benned in the bathroom!!

4) What should you be doing? -School
Someone smart enough to get out of sitting through the daily 7 hours of bullshit our nation calls "school". Generally the all-around coolest people ever, along with being the best educated element of society.

Typically hated by governments who want to indoctrinate youth, and clueless fucktards who secretly wish they didn't have to go to school either.
Damn! That homeschooled guy just got laid twice last night! Too bad the guys who go to school are socially inert, castrated sheep, or they could have some fun too...

5) Favorite color? -Black
1.Darkness, a dark colour, the colour of this text is black.

2.A race - The black race can range from African american to polynesian.
1. I own a black car.

2. A black person stole my car.

6) Birthplace? -Orlando
(n) Slang term for an orgasm.

Etymology: Orgasm --> O-Town --> Orlando
The following examples take place post coitus:

Conversation 1:

JIM (with satisfied grin): "So, how was Orlando?"
JILL (dazed expression): "Phenomenal."

Conversation 2:

JIM (with look of remorse): "Sorry I wasn't able to take you to Orlando with me tonight."
JILL (disappointed): "Its fine, next time I might need a longer flight though."

Conversation 3:

JIM: "So, Bill, what are you up to tonight?"
BILL: "I don't know. I'll probably just take a quick flight to Orlando and watch the CW."

7) Birth Month? -May
may is the month where teachers think that they can control a classroom but really nothing gets done and no one cares about their grades anymore. usually this happens because summer break is only 30 days away
"hooray i have math..."
"don't worry bro, its may, nothing gets done anymore"

8) Last person you talked to? -Dianne
A word commonly used to describe someone of physical perfection; an elite athlete.
Never allergic to cats.
"that basketball player is obviously a dianne, i've never seen anyone play like that!"

9) One of your nicknames? -Mello
The leather-clad, biker, chocolate addict from tha anime/manga Death Note.
I think Mello is gay.